Wednesday, March 23
INFP
creative, smart, idealist, loner, attracted to sad things, disorganized, avoidant, overwhelmed by unpleasant feelings, quitter, lonely, rule breaker, solitary, daydreams about people to maintain a sense of closeness, focus on fantasies, acts without planning, no self confidence, emotionally moody, feels defective, fails to complete work on time, likes esoteric things, wounded at the core, feels shame, frequently losing things, sad, dreams about a rescuer, disorderly, observer, easily distracted, does not like crowds, acts without thinking, private, uncomfortable around others, familiar with the darkside, hermit, pro-weed legalization, sabotages self, likes the rain, can't control fearful thoughts, cries easily, prone to regret, attracted to the counter culture, submissive, easily discouraged, frequently second guesses self, not punctual, not prepared, feels victimized, easily confused, irresponsible, pessimistic
favored careers:
poet, painter, freelance artist, musician, writer, art therapist, teacher (art, music, drama), songwriter, art historian, library assistant, composer, work in the perfoming arts, art curator, playwrite, bookseller, cartoonist, video editor, photographer, philosopher, record store owner, digital artist, cinematographer, costume designer, film producer, philosophy professor, librarian, music therapist, enviromentalist, movie director, activist, bookstore owner, filmmaker
disfavored careers:
business professional, manager, executive, administrator, business owner, supervisor, office manager, business analyst, financial analyst, public relations manager, ceo, executive assistant, judge, event coordinator, lawyer, office worker
[see tell my parents. i shouldn't be a lawyer. going crazy waiting for jean's results. why are they taking so long??? can't they post the results online like ordinary people? i am truly going insane. strangely if it were me i wouldn't care. but it's her.. and the phone just rang, what the bleep, i nearly died.. arghh arghhh arghh please God i'll do anything. i'll force myself to forget peiyi. i'll do anything. please don't let her go to sa and be wasted there. i thought she'd come and join jan and me and we'd be happy happy as always but the thought that it might not come true is tearing me apart.. jan's so happy.. i'm not.. i guess i can never be.. why God.. maybe she needs to do smth in sa.. some duty to fulfil, some mission. and i'm stuck in hc because i need to do something too. maybe something alone. i am scared. please please please. i am going nuts. i'll give up by midnight and start on my essay due tmr. history. again. i can't take it. ]
it must've been love.
9:01 pm
xoxo
